When

When
© N Noël Jan 2010


When I am rich I’ll be happy
When I am in love I will be whole
When I retire things will get better
And so the story goes untold

Waiting in vain for life to happen
Each day goes by a life unspent
When it’s over all that’s left
Is a life hollow full of regrets

When the children are older I’ll take that vacation
Waiting for life to give you your turn
When will we learn there is no tomorrow
Hopefully the lesson will come very soon

When I am married I won’t be lonely
Forgetting a partner may not be a friend
When I have children I will be complete
Never keeping in mind a full house
One day becomes an empty nest

When I lose weight I will be noticed
Many will beckon flocking at my feet
Never understanding confidence is not on the surface
Loving yourself runs skin deep

When I find myself I will take a partner
No need to settle for one, there’s too many to meet
Time passes by and you get older
Standing alone cause you won’t commit

When I become of age, a Grown Up
No parents to tell me what I should do
Or how to behave
Pushing through life and soon it’s over
Missing those same parents you tried to escape

When there is time I’ll live out my dreams
Thinking time is on your side
Life, work and reality take over dreams of youth
Forgotten, buried under the waste of things you hoped to gain

When I am wise I will live each moment
Take nothing for granted each day is sweet
When I wake each morning I’ll SCREAM to the heavens
I’ve made it to see another day
Work towards fulfillment won’t give my hopes away

When I learn to love me
And the life I was given
Time will become my number one friend
When is the Here, the Now and My Present
I’m gonna make every second count until the end

Good-bye

Good-bye
© N Noël Jan 2010



Walked away with my head held high
Told myself over and over not gonna cry
Holding in tears no one could see
That’s the day you stopped seeing me

No explanation or words entertained
Just showers of sorrow pouring like rain
Heart left full ready to burst from one word whispered
Good-bye
Soul carried out in a hearse

Gone were the times when sun shined through
Shadows of memories from so long ago
Confusion compiled with questions and mistakes
Love, friendship and the truth all misplaced
Good-bye

No making sense of all the pain
Numb each emotion start again
Reliving each moment when “It” fell apart
Trying to uncoil the story from the end back to start
Good-bye
Still the same, empty, broken attached with shame
Good-bye
Tears falling running from blame

No concessions, last smiles or amends
Doors slammed on a heart once a friend
Good-bye
Back turned, strong stride, you walking away
Gone, along with time unexplained
Good-bye

Sheets of tears, worries, memories and pain
Holding it together because “self” is to gain
Good-bye
Mind cleared with new breath, breathe in
Good-byes lead to new and joyful things

New day deserves a new start
Good-bye
Two small words lead to a Free Heart
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
No more hurt, No need to cry
This is the last Good-bye