If

If
© N Noël May 2010




If I don’t try there’s nothing to miss
If the hearts’ door stays closed pain won’t exist
If I keep silent the truth won’t be known
These are the things my spirit keeps trying to own

If I don’t give there’s nothing to loose
No one can judge you til they’re in your shoes
If I don’t scream there won’t be pain
Just noises in my head driving me INSANE
Wrong or right my thoughts are rift
My mind keeps going through this paradigm shift

If, if, if, if the echoes of my past would quiet their roars
Maybe past hurts would heal, stop oozing like sores
If I knew the answers to all of these things
Would life begin new like a morning in Spring
Dare I take a chance and let someone in

If promises were kept would I have become this strong
Life can be simple we’re the complicated part
If it feels wrong in the beginning why even start
If is a word I repeat everyday
Choosing which path is a chore painful at times
Some choices good, others dismal, prolonged

If I were free from the shackles of my Soul
Would pleasure and trust be the gift I am sold
Is it worth it to take a chance
Or wait on the sidelines for a last dance
If is a word I repeat everyday
My heart’s still wavering, at bay